Simply fantastic.....

HELLO! ARE YOU LISTENING NOW?

11/13/08




What am I to you Do you care at all about the time and effort I put into just waking up and getting through the day? my life has almost constantly revolved around what other people wanted; how other people felt. My existence might as well be entitled: "Everybody else." It's as if I no longer have a name. I listen and sympathize, I advise and care, and yet in the end my hands are empty. I've never been a friend in order to gain something. That isn't frienship. The only expectation I ever had was one that shouldn't even have to be put into consideration, and if you haven't guessed it yet, it's your friendship. Seriously. Thats all. Pure, unfiltered,unaltered freindship.
Today was a real eye-opener. Perfect strangers were willing to come and talk with me, laugh with me, say stupid things with me. But my friends weren't. This hurts more than words can express. Mostly because I feel rejected all over again, and today was supposed to be about inclusion and welcoming. This post isn't just about today. This is about what has been building up over the past four years, and I'm ready for whats coming. I had hoped somebody would care.