Done.done.done. done. enough. I've had enough. No MORE, of this, this dumb! I am an izzle for goodness sake and a lion! I am an Izzle Lion and I wont stand for this damned "almost" state of being! I am Here, dammit, and I am not going to be an alomst anything!!!!
So....
Don't reach for your happy faces girls, this time I'm brutal.
Brutal, Honest and Unflinching. Understand if you will, this isn't hostility! Goodness, no! This is real. And lovingly so.
I have wasted so much time wishing, wanting, waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to roll the dice. But I'm seizing control of this game of chance that is my life for the first time and no way I'm giving it up for anything.
Always, my every action, every word spoken, every thought conveyed,
ALWAYS
it was for everyone else. And let me tell ya, I'm exhausted.
I can't live my life for anyone else. I won't do it anymore. I'm here in the south, with the whole world shining in my eyes.
I've stopped warring with my self. There is peace here in my heart and with that Peace I've realized comes a sense of calm and coolness. And so, calmly and cooly and with a level head and open (yet firm) heart, I tell you that I haven't been honest with myself and that is changing. I have strength in ME, and there will be times when I need you, but I no longer feel the absolute desperation of loneliness. I've made my peace, or most of it...the rest can wait. Because I'm better than that.
Yours in earnest,
M.ugsy the I.zzle L.ioness
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Good. :)
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